[08.30.09] pt2 *

i am moving so soon! i am getting so so so excited :)

i lived in rez last year.. and this year i have a house.

aka. i will have to do all of my own cooking.. which i may or may not {probably not} do a lot of!

My brother and my dad were away all weekend at my brothers baseball tournament.. so my mom decided to teach me how to cook.. so that i know what im doing.

[last time i tried to cook.. a few years ago.. i lit the kitchen on fire...]

so she showed me how to make bacon, sausage, hashbrowns - all for breakfast

and showed me how to make a roast, corn on the cob, mashed potatoes & snow peas/sugar snap peas.

after cooking the meals, and it just being my mom and i, i had to eat some. i didnt even feel bad eating! i enjoyed my meals with her, and we had so much fun, just like we used to back when i was recovered. i didnt eat a whole lot, but enough to show that i actually do eat!

i didnt take laxatives, or purge.. i took my satisfaction in knowing that it is the most i have eaten in weeks, and it was reassuring to know that my parents think i am doing well.

as much as i hate the thought of food sitting in my stomach.. i think that this week will be a week of eating, mainly because i have to cook for the rest of it!

my family has been so good to me, i feel that i owe them this.

i will sacrifice one week of my journey to thin, because as of thursday.. i will be without them forever!

i think i can handle it.. for one week?

shiiiit yaaaa.

i mean, i wont pig out, but i will eat a little bit at meals with them.

and to edit a previous post..

i was scheduled to move tuesday.. but i cant get the moving truck til thursday.. so i will not be moving until then.. will still be living out of boxes though!

i cant wait to get to my new house... i am so so excited!

do you guys think that making my parents happy for my last week here is an ok idea?

i have no troubles fasting, so i can easily reverse this stuff starting thursday...

comment and let me knoww :)

[08.27.09] * moving. update

i haven't updated in a few days..

i am in the midst of moving back to university. last year was my first year, so i lived in rez. this year i am living off campus with friends a made in rez. i miss them so much. the closest one lives two hours away, and i havent seen any of them since april! so i am pretty pumped to get to see them again. a lot of my stuff is in boxes, and i have no idea where certain things are. i start moving on tuesday.. but i have a lot of packing and organizing to do since i am moving out of my parents house forever!

it is sad, and its going to be really hard. i love my parents so much! we are so close [other than the fact i lie about eating and whatnot], but we have an amazing relationship. i am going to miss them lots, and my little brother [he's about a foot taller than me - gianttt!]. but once i move in and get into the pace of school again, i will stop missing the fam. I will be so busy weighing food, counting calories, working out, blogging and of course, going to class!

I cant wait at all!

so tomorrow is my very last shift at the pool, EVER!

i have been a lifeguard for 5 years now.. and have worked at the same pool. i am officially finished after tomorrow, since i will not have any more terms off to have a summer job. i started saying my goodbyes to those who i will not be seeing tomorrow. again, it is sad.

and when im sad, i definitely do not eat! which is a good thing. sadness causes me to lose my appetite. wooot.

today was a good day. i havent eaten since tuesday, and i am starting to get the light-headed, dizzy, super out of it feeling. and as terrible as it sounds - i LOVE itt! it is so greatt!

but i will have to eat something tomorrow since i work 9 hours.. and work is really draining, and i have to be really alert [&i need to be strong] - so i will eat tomorrow during the day, and then start another fast tomorrow nightt!

only got an hour and a half workout in today - but better than nothingg!

hope everyone is doing well. i will read everyone's updates and leave comments tomorrow.. i have to be to work in six hours and am in desperate need of sleep!

think thin.

stay strong lovellies :)